Time Flies

I’ve been looking at this blog a few times of late and it occurred to me that maybe i should post on it.

Things have changed considerable for me these last few years and i am really not sure where i am within my own lifestyle. In 2013.We Mo and i move home and He became almost overnight my official carer, since then I’ve become a grandmother 3 times  and many things have change as to how we live but am i still slave I’m not rightly sure to be honest. If i take the time to think about it I’d say I’d wish to be but i’m really not sure how that would work in today’s regime.

It cannot i think be as it was, we are all different, i really must speak to Mo about it i think and maybe decide how we might move forward or sideways or if we even want to . i really am not sure where my life might be heading from here. 

People change; things change, time changes, priorities change, but expectations always remain the same, or do they .?

Life goes on....

It is always important to know when something has reached its end. Closing circles, shutting doors, finishing chapters, it doesn't matter what we call it; what matters is to leave in the past those moments in life that are over. Study the past if you would define your future and so life goes on and so does my submission albeit to a different beat.
The only thing a person can ever really do is keep moving forward. Take that big leap forward without hesitation, without to much looking back. Simply forge toward the future. There is no forgetting but change has to come for life to continue it's relentless forward beating.
There was a smile dancing on my lips, although it was a wary smile, for the world is a bigger place than a little graveyard on a hill; and there will be dangers in it and mysteries, new friends to make, old friends to rediscover, mistakes to be made and many paths to be walked before i will , finally, return to the graveyard or ride with the Goddess on the broad back of her great grey stallion.

Path of life

As you walk down life's paths you will learn,
You'll reach sign posts, choosing which way to turn.
Some of the ways that you turn will be wrong,
This is not a journey to be taken lightly or just because you are curious.
 Its is a way of life that has been handed down over centuries . 
This way of life has been given to us to guide us through our lives, to show us that everything that we do has a reaction, to teach us that we must honour and respect the world in which we live and the people who we share this world with, regardless of their race, colour, creed or status.
This is a high demand, but one im eager and willing to take

Balance

We are all familiar with the yin/yang symbol: a black and white circle with a design that resembles two fish swimming head to tail. It is the basis of understanding balance, and balance is the key, natural balance affects us all.
Moderation in one's emotions is good for you. If one's lifestyle is imbalanced, you will find yourself in extreme situations that will destroy your health. As we start to find our balance. A world of understanding and happiness begins to unfold.
To have balance in life certainly is one of the most important overall goals to reach. At the same time it is a real toughie. On the one hand you focus on something you want to achieve, you make progress, but on the run you lose focus in another area of life.
What is needed here is a wider perspective.
First i need to take a step back and decide what the important areas in my life are.
Second i have to make sure that i keep this perspective and don’t lose myself in only one area, turning my back to all the others.
There are certain areas in life that are important for all human beings.
These are mainly mind, body, spirit, relationships, and emotions. Of course the degree of importance differs, but if we are able to have a certain focus in all areas we are able to achieve a healthy balance.
That balance then in return will empower each area again; because there is no personal area that is dragging you down, while you climb up will have your focus on all important areas of my life to enable me to create the balance i feel i need at present.

Clarity

Clearness of appearance of thought or style; lucidity

Clear, not transparent.

Some would say it’s not a journey, that there are no stages – that one can move into complete clarity in a single moment, without any prior path or practice necessary.  i believe that’s untrue and impossible.
Many people feel a longing to be more “here” in each moment, a longing to feel more alive. We often feel a general uneasiness, dissatisfaction or anxiety that takes away from the enjoyment we believe is possible..we know where it is we wish to be but currently there are several obstacles outside of our control that make our progress on our chosen path, impossible at present,
There are many different spiritual paths, as i contemplate how those obstacles apply to Master.M and i the frustration to us both is currently the all encompassing topic in most of our conversation and will be until this is resolved. However we are planning to met up  very soon and  Master .M has purchased a beautiful collar which i am hoping He will be putting on His slave on that occasion [i shall post more about that in due course].
But clarity yes. seeing clearly our path , however many rocks, fallen trees currently bar our way, we are quite determined to walk together along the road. no matter what hurdles  are in the way and we are both aware they are several and possibly many more, but the end will justify the means.We are clear as to our destination.

Jigsaw

Yes i'm sure that there is a greater plan, just wish someone would let me in on what it is.
 As previously said i believe in karma so i have faith that what will be .. will be
The law of karma, says only this: `for every event that occurs, there will follow another event whose existence was caused by the first, and this second event will be pleasant or unpleasant according as its cause was skillful or unskillful.

In the mean time i work on
clarity where my life is headed.
Balance when things get crazy
Peace of mind knowing i am addressing those aspects of your life that matter most

Newton's Third Law of Physics states for every action there is an equal and opposite reaction.

What goes around, comes around..A person's actions, whether good or bad, will often have consequences for that person.

All this  pretty much means the same thing..


which still leaves me with the pieces of my jigsaw puzzle lying on the table still unmade ...
Now its a well know fact that this slave has . no patience.. try as i might to learn some...
But currently i'm playing a sit and wait with so many What If's and wait and see's involved that something has to gel from it soon and when it does i'm hoping it all falls into the right place at the right time and builds my jigsaw to perfection.

Fingers Crossed

No Harm done.

How can she be submissive and assertive at the same time? Even a submissive woman can and should learn to say "no" . This is not out of her role! Submissive’s can and should have safe words [i have a safe word] or some kind of signals that allow their Dominant to know what's going on with them. SAYING "NO!" IS JUST ANOTHER SAFE WORD. But saying No isn’t in me because my core is a submissive one and by nature wishes to only say yes. But it seems today Master M decided to test His new slave and in his words "I had to give you something I knew was almost impossible for you to achieve to see if you would just blindly follow the order. You did not, you provided reasoned arguments why it could not be achieved" but He pushed me so hard to the point that i almost had to say No. Almost but not quite. i've been told so many times that submission isn’t always pleasant or easy, if it was all about submitting to the nice things what is there really in your submission. If you’re a masochist what's in submitting to a spanking, there is none. Anyway i got upset because so new in our relationship and almost the first major request Master.M had asked of me and i even considered saying No and i had this huge struggle with my inner core to not fold from what i truly felt, as it was the moment past after i said "i'll submit to Your request as You know i would, but i’m not happy about it. Shortly after Master.M was honest enough to say "that it was designed to do just as you test me so I am going to test you”. So all in all a good result. No [no pun intended] harm done