Non Smoker

Well, i woke up on Wednesday morning, having spent a very restless night worrying over just about everything i could possibly worry about, my health, MG's health, the kids, money, you name it, just about everything that had the tiniest reason to worry about it.

Mainly, i guess, i worried about MG and his health. His legs are not getting any better, and now i know, he also has an infection in his right ankle. Even without that problem, i wonder where this is all leading, we manage to clear up one ulcer and maybe have a few days grace when, before our very eyes, another one break out, it goes round and round... and i have to ask myself why the doctors don't try and cure the cause rather than the symptoms because until they do, i cannot see an end to this damn circle of infection/ulcer/ weeks of treatment/healing/infection/ulcer....... round and round we have been going for nearly 16 months now.

Well, there i was laying awake and wondering what the answer was and what i, me, his slave might be able to do that might make things a little better for him and for me as well and then it struck me, lets tackle one thing at a time, first MG needs to loose weight because in doing so that will aid the leg problem as well as the high blood pressure..... what else...oh yes..the dreaded weed..!!! It really is about time we gave up the weed... stopped smoking... arggggggggg..... because at the very least giving up smoking might help all the other problems in the long term and so... we have done.. just that. Both of us have decided its time to take the step and stop. It has to be a good step as i am convinced that it is the beginning of the end to some of the other health problems that we are both suffering of late.

With the aid of stop smoking patches and a course of tablets the Doc gave MG... within a few weeks we shall be reformed..."non smokers"

As i say..the docs gave MG a course of tabs to help him to give up which he is now taking and for me...well, patches are doing it for me and this is day 3 and i am doing great, have no need or desire to have a ciggy at all and that is brilliant considering i have been a smoker for some 35 years.

The odd headache that comes with nicotine withdrawal but that's it, and i cannot believe that the desire for a ciggie isn't the total focus any more... i don't want one, i certainly am not a blubbering wreak i thought i might be and MG, well his course is a bit more complicated than mine but in time he also will have no need to have a fag and we shall have made one big big step towards altering the vicious cirlce we seem to be in regarding our general health.

Quit smoking, loose some weight, no fags means more energy= ability to go walking = exercise = fit = legs better = general improvement in health = longer life = end goal

Have it sussed i think and the first step is on its way and it feels great to finally be doing something that i can see an end result to.

i'll keep you posted as to the progress.