Whether one is completely in sub mode or whether one is not. - i am always his property, that doesn't change. What changes is the formal/less formal way i behave. More often than not, i follow his lead regarding the tone of the moment when i need to determine how to react. i can tell by the look on his face, the things he says (or doesn't say) whether or not i'm on the right track.i'm conscious that i've not been getting a lot of opportunities lately to submit to very much of anything. Master is pre occupied, and feeling somewhat less than Dominant, i think. i realised that while for the most part He doesn't change his mindset to far from the middle line He tends to walk, i'm the one that follows along with the "adjustment", to create the balance, its not for my Master to re focus, that’s slaves job. In saying that i have no complaints, whatever he gives me - rewards, affection, tokens or restrictions, i take them gladly. Whatever his motivations i'm just the recipient of his choices, his mindset. Luckily for both of us, all of the things he gives me i'm grateful for. i don't change my behaviour towards what he gives me depending on what it is.
If he struggles with whether he's being firm enough or caring enough or honest enough, those are struggles i can't assist with, other than hearing them out if he chooses to share.
But i will always take what he gives me and be grateful for it. It’s just how it is.
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