A connection was formed something close to five years ago and remains active. When i realised i loved You, once that had occurred and i realised i was "in love “with You, my path was set. Any way, things are what they are. We keep doing what we’re doing and end up where we end up. To submit, after some thought and some hunting around on-line for a definition, the original Latin meaning of submit which comes from the word submittere "to yield, lower, let down, put under, reduce," “Now, it may just be me, but i don't see anything in there about 'happily, with a big joyous smile on one's face' or ’with great enthusiasm'. There's nothing in that definition that says you have to like or enjoy it. Yes, there is an inference of willingness in that the person has to yield (give in, so to speak) or lower themselves, but it says nothing about there being blissful flights of angels to accompany it. Because, sometimes 'obeying' is just a big pain in the ass. That brings us to the big question "What do i get out of my submission?” i don't know is the honest answer. i have a burning need to serve and please, of course i prefer Master to be happy than angry or sad, serving and pleasing are so much driving needs in me.. i need to be serving Him in order to feel complete. i think i get varying degrees of satisfaction more than anything else when I've managed to do what is required of me. Achieving something that was previously impossible give me a sense inside that I've 'done well'. It's the acknowledgement that i enjoy more than the serving and pleasing per se.The "good Girl" pat on the head. There are times when i've been beaten and taken quite a solid beating and it's never quite made me feel so 'acknowledged' as your slave, as when i've struggled through a light beating. i guess for me i get a stronger sense of satisfaction when it's not so easy, when i struggle for Your pleasure - when i'm doing things that i don't want to do. We’ve often said submission isn’t always about the nicer side.i guess i need the struggle.
Thursday, March 27, 2008
Good Girl
A connection was formed something close to five years ago and remains active. When i realised i loved You, once that had occurred and i realised i was "in love “with You, my path was set. Any way, things are what they are. We keep doing what we’re doing and end up where we end up. To submit, after some thought and some hunting around on-line for a definition, the original Latin meaning of submit which comes from the word submittere "to yield, lower, let down, put under, reduce," “Now, it may just be me, but i don't see anything in there about 'happily, with a big joyous smile on one's face' or ’with great enthusiasm'. There's nothing in that definition that says you have to like or enjoy it. Yes, there is an inference of willingness in that the person has to yield (give in, so to speak) or lower themselves, but it says nothing about there being blissful flights of angels to accompany it. Because, sometimes 'obeying' is just a big pain in the ass. That brings us to the big question "What do i get out of my submission?” i don't know is the honest answer. i have a burning need to serve and please, of course i prefer Master to be happy than angry or sad, serving and pleasing are so much driving needs in me.. i need to be serving Him in order to feel complete. i think i get varying degrees of satisfaction more than anything else when I've managed to do what is required of me. Achieving something that was previously impossible give me a sense inside that I've 'done well'. It's the acknowledgement that i enjoy more than the serving and pleasing per se.The "good Girl" pat on the head. There are times when i've been beaten and taken quite a solid beating and it's never quite made me feel so 'acknowledged' as your slave, as when i've struggled through a light beating. i guess for me i get a stronger sense of satisfaction when it's not so easy, when i struggle for Your pleasure - when i'm doing things that i don't want to do. We’ve often said submission isn’t always about the nicer side.i guess i need the struggle.
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