Striving.

i guess that we can all put in too much for our own good in all sorts of aspects of our lives, trying too hard to get where we are going and not getting anywhere fast. We all still try tho and keep on trying because if we don't, whats the point in it all. Nothing in life is free or is going to fall into your lap, anything worth having is worth fighting for, struggling for, its like given kids money, it burns a hole in their pockets, but if they have to work for it, it make it all the more pleasurable in the long run and they don't go out and blow it all, recalling what they had to do to get it in the first place.
Then again, i guess you could say that for every up there is going to be a down, for every high, a low... i just wish i had more of the high/ups than the low/downs but.. as has been said before.. there are people far worse off so what am i complaining about.
Nothing really, moping around serves little purpose so i got up this morning and dusted myself off and set me head in the "held High" position and have decided to make the best of a bad situation... besides..its day 5 of 5 today so as of 9am tomorrow morning (Thursday) MG is at home until Sunday pm. Thats enough to put a spring in my step as i am sure we will have some quality time together during these next few days that will keep us going for a while (is hoping anyway).
Does strength of character make the struggle to remain within the bounds of my submission harder or easier, sure it would be easy to give up and just get on with what life dishes out and forget the M/s that is such a major part of our lives, revert to the nilla life that doesn't take into consideration any of the other more deep aspects of how we have chosen to live. Thats not for me however, i don't want to live like that as a general rule preferring the regime which we have in place at present, even if on some days it gets put on the back burner. The mindset never leaves, i am and always will be slave to MG.. if there are days when he doesn't require that of me or if he hasn't got the need for that, rather to relax in a more informal atmosphere.. that could also be considered as M/s as that would be his choice and i as his slave would adhere to that as a need of my Master being fulfilled... whooo nice twist there slave and one that has only just occurred to me...Wow.. a flash of inspiration and at this time of night too.... i do wonder where it came from...but i shall think more on that anyway.
Should i even complain at all if MG doesn't have a Dom head on... He is Master after all and who am i to say that i am going without when what should be my first priority is what MG wants and needs. As his slave that is surely my first priority, to see that he is comfortable as best as i can, to do what is needed or at less try to do what i can to make his life more comfortable and rewarding. Moaning to him about what i feel i might be missing isn't very sub really.... I have some thinking to do, i think...!!!