i guess that it is possible to have an average day in an unaverage world, and if it is, then that is where i have been today.
Average for me anyway on a day when i seem to be in pain or hurting in some form or another, either physically or mentally.
Mother nature has yet again decided to show herself before her due date and this is something i have a real problem with right now. All my adult life i have been a regular girl, 28 days on the dot for as long as i can remember, but now, as i get closer to that time in my life when my reproductive cycle begins to grind to a halt, it is so unpredictable that it catches me by surprise, it may be 21 days, or 45, who knows, but i am reliably informed that this is quite natural and might go on for some time yet before i finally dry up completely.. Roll on the day. After 30 odd years i can’t say i shall miss it one bit. i suppose i should be grateful that at least i have never really ever suffered from PMT although i do find i am less able to cope with things that on any other day would be a breeze.. but such is life. The real bummer in all that is, it sort of messed up the weekend with Master a bit, but as i often say..there is more than one way to skin a cat (winks)
My other ongoing pain, which far exceeds a slight ache once a month, is the "Frozen shoulder" that plagues me daily... this pain is indescribable unless you have ever suffered from it, sending wave after wave of excruciating pain down my right arm... its not even a pain you can get use to other time. Having had my left shoulder freeze up on me some 2 years ago, and having gone through the process of doctors and specialists and months of waiting for a diagnosis, then 3 not very nice hydrocortisone jabs into an already very painful shoulder, which proved to be absolutely useless, and some not so nice physio man who told me he could "break" the freeze but it would be a very very painful process" i came to the conclusion that i had just better grin and bear it as i am told, "it will right itself in time".. in 2 or 3 years time i might add. so the left shoulder is on the downward run as it is about 2 years now since the onset, the pain has all but gone and i am just left with an arm that doesn’t work properly as the rotation is rather badly impaired, but at least it doesn’t hurt any more.
i can’t say the same for the right shoulder which started to freeze up a few months ago and is still in the extreme pain stage.. so i only have to get through maybe another year or 18 months of constant pain.
Sleeping can be difficult, which makes some days almost impossible due to tiredness; i have to be constantly aware not to catch my arm wrong or to forget the arm won’t rotate as it should or i end up a heap on the floor, in agony.. My local chemist is doing a roaring trade in painkillers as i seem to live on them these days.
Oh stop complaining woman..There are people far worse off than you...!!
Within the realms of D/s and S and M, (sado-masochism) there is a lot of pain related activities but these can be identified in different ways, there is pain.. As in having a tooth pulled or stubbing your toe, which is just plain good old fashion pain..Ouch, hurting kind of pain.. then there is sensual pain, or what we call pleasure pain, which is a whole different ball game.
Rather than going into it in great detail here, i will add a link to the seekers site where if you have an interesting in finding out about pain and pleasure pain, you can read all about it. Lets talk about pain.
As for me... all i feel today is ouchie, shoulder, belly, head... maybe i need an early night !!!
Link to Frozen shoulder article
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