Another day, another dollar or in the case of the British, a pound to a penny... ie..work looms and takes MG approx 75 miles in the wrong direction from me and on a Friday evening when the children have gone to their fathers for the weekend and i am sitting here, alone. What an opportunity you might think, if only dear reader... we were both in the same place at the same time but the shift patterns seem to fall that MG will be home only 3 Friday evenings out of 8, not good odds but one that we have little control over so, best get on with it. And i think that was MG's idea this evening, to get on and try something a little different within our M/s relationship.
i feel i must first explain something to all you good people who perchance to arrive in this little oasis of BDSM called my blog. i am a slave, consensual, but none the less a slave, to my Master, MG, to whom i have gifted my life, mind, heart, soul and tonight it would seem also my body, even if He isn't here to take one on one advantage of that control, let me tell you, that is not about to stop Him having his way.
If you have read a previous blog regarding some new toys we have this week purchased, you will be aware that some little electronic gadgetry has found its way into our toy box (the place where all those nice things dwell and that Master has absolute control over, would i dare touch, NOOOOO )
We are fortunate enough to be able to talk to one another in messenger while MG is at work, when it is quiet and He has little to do over the long hours and tonight, seem to be one of those nights. He appeared on my computer desktop as a flashing indicator and i am instantly taken into a different realm from the one i had been in, which was a gentle surf of some net pages and a little bit of graphic designing, to pass the hours away.
In a moment, the control is there, the submission to His will, instantly aware of his presence even tho He isn't here, matters not, He speaks, even in words on a screen and i am riveted to His will. Pleasantries, greeting to my Master (who i have to say is still full up with the flu bug, poor love) and a discussion regarding of all things.. the subject of today's blog. Silly me, i should have learnt by now that if i pass over my choices to MG, He will, without a shadow of a doubt.. take hold of the reigns and run with it, and well, this is the result good people.
His control this evening extended to the placing of and ultimate testing of the clit stimulator. Not for His or my sexual gratification you understand, but a) to see how affective it is and b) for me to feel His controleven from 75 miles away, because any female out there will agree with me when i say that to have this little beauty strategically placed on a certain part of ones body is going to have some effect with or without your man present but the important part here is "control" because you see, i am going to get sexually aroused by this thing, but i also know that i am then going to be denied the full pleasure each time i am instructed to turn it off, that is control from MG and my submission of that control, Master is going to say "turn it off " because that is one of the ways Doms use their control, it gives then a buzz to know they hold the key to the slave's, in this case, sexual gratification, to know they have ultimate control.
On and off, on and off, winding up, creating a controlled space even 75 miles away. Of course, you say that i might not do what i am told and leave it running for my own pleasure, but that isn't how it works for me, no point in even going there because to disobey Master isn't something that i find does anything for me so why should i, i get more out of feeling his control than i would ever get out of lying to him and going my own way. So i comply with his instructions to the letter and while this little experience in gadgetry and control takes place, i am also instructed to write this blog, and that's where we are at, right this minute... (if you listen hard, you might even hear the buzzing)
The stimulation effect, lulls the body into a sense of security, humming away in the background while the mind is on the written word but it becomes difficult to concentrate on any thought process other than what my brain is telling me which is way more important right now and that's the warmth i am feeling in my lower regions, the beginning of a need to take this further, to complete the circle, but no, not yet Master says, wait, "I have control slave, only when i say".. three times i have had to switch it off so far, to be left with a totally different feeling, one of tightness as the flesh contracts following the time it has relaxed and absorb the sensation.. i now wait to be instructed to resume... oh i really should add here that of course, senses are heightened considerably during this test and they do not all recede when the machine is switched off, some remain, waiting, and the more the stimulation, the more the need to continue... On again now......
Give me a minute here.....!!!!!!!!!!!
ermmmmmmmm... i should point out that i am not one for self stimulation preferring to have Master here and for him to have the ultimate control over my sexuality so this isn't something that i do under normal circumstances and i have to say that i am not greatly enjoying the lifting up and then the letting down aspect of it, go for broke is my motto, i want it all and i want it now is my normal modus operandi.... a failing i have as Master often points out to me, the "i want it and i want it now" attitude and having said that, i am now getting to the point where being told to switch this thing off is beginning to grate on me because i don't want too, but i will with a pout and a lil whine to which the reply is "Do it please slave", how can i not..?
i understand the control aspect only too well but i have to ask at this point, for how long do i need to submit to this torture and how much control does MG feel he needs, i could climb a wall right now and having informed my Master of that fact via my PC screen i am told...."stick with it slave" i could screammmmmmmm but i am slave and i submit, however difficult that may be because as is often said, submission by its very nature is not always pleasant and for me, right now, i cant find this an enjoyable experience, i am so uptight and frustrated that i could cry but yet again i am told to switch it off, which i have done and now i am trying to regain control of myself before it is back on again.
i have to admit that i had thought about shifting my conscious thoughts away from the toy, just switch my senses off for a while but again that would be wrong of me and dishonest and Master would not be pleased and his displeasure is not what i am about............................................
Oh..now heres a thing folks, with the machine in the off position, as i wait to be instructed to continue, My Master is called away from his PC (well, after all he is at work) and who knows where this little bit of Master/slave control might end now..!!!
This entry commenced at 8.45pm and finished at, well..what with begin called away.. it is now 11.45 and i guess i have had an experience which was new to me, cant say i have enjoyed it all that much.. maybe had it all paned out and an end result achieved it might have been different, but as it is, i am content to have had the experience
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