Pain, Pain, go away

There is pain and then there is pain... and then again... there is PAIN ...and i'm in the latter today. Now i can tolerate most things for a little time, but this is beginning to get the better of me and seems to be all encompassing right now, one of those pains that no matter what you try to do about it, nothing makes any difference and by crikey, if i take any more tablets, ill rattle as i walk. However, we all have crosses to bear at some point or another and they cannot be allowed to take hold or drive us out of the very core of your daily lives. i will not allow this to get the better of me at the cost of so many other things that i want and need to do... i will survive this. *tries to be positive about this.
Having said that, i am way too sensitive today to take much of anything else, pain wise, so MG has been on the softly softly approach with me, for which i am grateful, im sure i would have ended up in a heap of tears and runny noses if he had not, but that doesn't allow for the fact that within our reality, i am still his slave and He is Master and as such there are things that i have to do and tasks that need to be completed and firstly i would not wish to be excused those unless they were really beyond my capabilities at present, (most are not) and secondly, He would not want to excuse me, that is way to easy too do, to find reasons not to remain within the set parameters of who and what we are and do. It is all too easy to let it slip, leave it for a day or so, get over whatever it is that is getting in the way and promise oneself that we will get back to it when things improve, we have tried that before and i have to say, from experience, it is more difficult to find the way back than it is to continue under whatever adversity is there at the time. i would rather take the time to do what needs to be done, complete it and have the satifaction of a job well done or a task completed than have to carry the weight of feeling like i had failed in some way or another just because i was excused due to some illness or in some pain, pain of a medical nature that isn't going to go away over night. i am stuck with this shoulder and the accompanying pain for maybe a year to 18 months...if each time it flares up, i am excused from my role as MG's slave, i might as will give it up here and now... and i am not about to do that for one minute, so best i just grin and bear it and work through it the best way i can.
That of course is not to say that if MG feels that it is all getting too much he wont take matters into his own hands (He has done that often enough before) and order me to bed or rest or whatever he feels is in my best interest, because there is no point in going over the top just to prove some dominant , macho image if it is to my long term detriment, again, that isn't something we do, not part of who we are or any real part of our Master/slave relationship... at the end of the day, we are a couple, just like any other couple and as such, neither of us are going to inflict harm on the other, just for the sake of D/s or M/s or anything else come to that.
Yes, we chose to live this lifestyle, yes we have defined roles within that but none will ever come before our love for one another, or our concern for the others well being. That is the first thing that has to be considered in all we do and we make provisions for as many eventualities as we can, but hey, i am going to get ill, or MG is or something will come up that has to be put before any kind of M/s stuff... priorities, we have to make them, i am just grateful that MG knows which ones come first sometimes and which ones can be put on hold.
In the best interest of..... either of us at any given time. Always..in the best interest of.....