Under Pressure

i made a conscious decision when i created this blog, not to just write for the sake of writing something, that there was always to be a reason or a need to have my say on whatever it was that stirred my imagination or had an influence on me at any given time. i can see no point in writing a load of words if they really have no bearing or significance to me or because i am pressured into making up some drivel just to have a blog published on that day and that folks, is the main reason for a few days of no blogging, i just haven't felt like it or felt up to it.

A bit under the weather i am right now, due mainly to my own stupidity as i know what i should and shouldn't eat but i get carried away sometimes and then suffer for hours because of it. A friend told me that it is probably due to years and years of bad diet and my habit of starving myself one day and pigging out the next. Now, at my age, its beginning to have a major impact on my daily life as i now have some trouble in eating a proper meal and keeping it down or at least, being comfortable with it. i think i have the solution tho and that is to eat little and often as i cannot seem to digest a full meal all at once. i just have to get into the habit that's all... give me time and i am sure i can resolve this.

Apart from the food problem, i also think i am beginning to see some of the effects of that time in a females life when the body clock beings to wind down and all the hormones start playing havoc with the system, little things that one begins to notice were not there before, like swollen fingers and of course the hot/cold flushes, the night sweats, the lack of a seem benefit from a nights sleep... if i can sleep through the night that is.
All in all i am not feeling great at present and what with Christmas nearly here, things still have to be done and i haven't got the energy to do them.

MG is on his 4 of a 5 day shift , i seemed to have spent a lot of alone time these last few days and to be honest..my escape is to sleep it off if i can which is what i am going to do now.

Sorry for a crap blog but i didn't want to leave it too long without writing something.