Friday, October 15, 2004

P-Zaz

P-Zaz..... Odd word, if i fact it exists, but i think most of us assume it to mean, whiz bang, something that jumps up and grabs you by the short and curlies, fireworks going off, a bit like the last part of the "1812 Overture" That's my idea of P-Zaz.
However, life cant be all P-Zaz, all the time, there is a need to come down out of the clouds and dare i say it, get on with the hum drum, every day necessities of life that are not all glitz and glamour. Boring, maybe but there is a need sometimes to be just plain old boring you, slopping around in joggers and t-shirts, relaxing in the contentment of ones life and i guess that's about where i feel i am today... nothing sparking, no big power trips going on, just a vanilla day i suppose. And what's wrong with that ?
Well, actually, nothing at all from where i am sitting right now, a lazy day, other than the usual chores that just wont go away however hard i try to forget they require my attention ... (why do kids need feeding so often and always just when i have sat down for a minute or two.)
It is possible to have too much of a good thing as it takes the shine of it or makes it the norm instead of the exception and it is the exceptions that make the sparks, make your heart miss a beat, give you that buzz, each time. If something becomes so regular and uniform it is no longer seen as something special and looses its appeal out of over use. Who would want flowers and chocolates every day of the year, i know i would get sick and tired of the same old.... (mind you i know of a few chocoholics who would disagree with me on that one)
Apart from it not being possible to remain on high M/s alert 24 hours a day, 7 days a week due to circumstances beyond our control, i am convinced that we would very quickly burn out and our M/s become so mundane and boring that we would begin to not bother with any of it and lose what we have worked so hard to create. But as M/s is a lot about mindset, whether we are "in role" or not, the knowledge of who we are is always there, deeply embedded into the very fabric of our lives, i am slave, MG is Master.. when that is needed, it kicks in and the roles burst into life and we are off and running in whatever the current situation demands us to be. Of course, there are other times when we make the conscious effort to instigate the roles, to reaffirm our places within our lives and we do that often because it is not possible to have it in the front of ones mind a lot of the time, other things just have to come before it, oh, i shouldn't say that really, people would definitely say that that wasn't how a D/s, M/s life really is... and to those i say..phah.... live it, try it..you will soon come to realise that there is no way that anyone can live it.. all day, every day. Dream on...

i feel we have found a good balance between the various roles that we have together, putting the priorities first giving the circumstances at the time. When there is less pressure to behave as Mr & Mrs Average, that is the time, in private that we can and do bring out the more enjoyable and demanding aspects of how we have chosen to live. We don't push it down people throats, we don't publicly play or display, that is our choice and we have no intention of changing that. Other do, others need that side of their D/s and all power to then, it is just not for us.
What we have is each other, come hell or high water and nothing or no-one is going to change that.. we have off days just like any other couple, but we have great, brilliant P-Zaz days as well and its the P-zaz that makes it possible to cope with the other crap that is always floating about in our lives much the same as it floats about in yours. We are no different really. Life is what you make it.. and we have made our's, good bad and P-Zazzy

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